R-E-G-R-E-T find out what it means to me

"you often regret more what you do not than what you do."
my life phylosophy. but i often stray away from it. Let me tell you the story.

It starts on thursday at drama festival. I see the man of my dreams. the hottest guy on the planet, or at least the hottest one i have seen, ever, no fucking joke. hottest guy ever. anyway, i see him periodicly with the individual events. whatever, he is another hot guy.... i kinda get a crush on him.

later on, we had workshops. when i got to mine i saw him there, which was neet because we both chose the same one, so i sat next to him. I didn't say a word, the extent of our conversation was when we were leaving he pushed some chairs to get through and accadently tripped me and said 'did i do that?' so i said 'yea' and he said 'sorry' so i said ' thats ok.' I just sat there the entire hour watching him out of the corner of my eye.

the next day, we are watching the one acts. i sat infront of him trying to find and oprotunity to talk to him, but i never really got one. After lunch his school did their play. he had a small part, but when he came on i gripped mike and pat with all my strenth.... i needed to brace myself for his hotness.... and the girl that was sitting next to pat apparently knew him. She told him his name is william, he is a football player... and strait (and the ho got to make out with him... lucky bitch) normaly finding out someone who may have been gay is striaght makes my crush begin to fade and it is gone the next day. not this one.

after their play was over, i never saw him or any of the kids from his school that i remeberd seeing him talk to, but there was apparently some still there.... i dunno it was strange.

today (sunday) i woke up and imediatly thought about him. then the regret sat it.... the opprotunities i could have talked to him but didn't. just being freinds with the hottest man on earth would be good enough for me. I wished so hard i could go back to that lame stage combat workshop and strike up a conversation. the problem now is it is way too late. i can't find him just to talk to him (though that doesn't mean i won't if i don't happen to get the chance) I was so depressed all day about my regrets, and i still sortof am..... *sigh* so that is my story....





in other news, im going to buy a tracfone today.... so i can finally have a cell. woot!